Disneyland & Golden Week

Yesterday, after church, me and some friends went to Tokyo Disneyland for the day!

It was so much fun, I am forgeting many troubles ♥

My parents left on friday for Italy and London for their own vacation.

I didn't want to go, as I did just go recently with Satoshi...

So, I spent the weekend with friends!

And tonight is my friend's goodbye party before she leaves back to the USA.

She is in another town for the day, so I can spend all day to get things ready at the club hall we rented out!!

It will be a fun party!

Routine Days

My days have been pretty boring. Work, visiting friends, more work.

It's not to bad though, the routine of things keeps my mind busy.

I have been really sleepy lately.

Going to bed around 8pm!

That is so odd for me, esspecially now that it is spring time.

I am always feeling exhausted!

Maybe I am starting to get a cold, I hope I will be ok though.

I have big work days coming, and a friend is moving back to USA so I am also planing her goodbye party.

These are the days I really miss Satoshi....

He would always cheer me up, stay with me so I sleep more calmly.

P.S. The comments are working again! I am excited to hear from any readers I have.

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Comment Problems

For some time now, comments have not been working on my blog. I have checked my settings over and over, but it all seems ok. Comments are enabled, but they still won't work.

Anyone know how I can fix this?!

So frustrating!!

Easter Holidays

The Easter Mass was lovely, a beautiful time of year.

After Mass, me and my parents walked around a few parks near our church, and I took many photo's of the beautiful blossoms.

We had a nice dinner, my mum made.

Very yummy.

My sister also called, and sent an e-mail to my dad with pictures of their easter day.

Shaun drew a cute picture in Sunday Class!

With Easter gone, that also means Lent is over.
That means I can shop again!

I am very proud that I have done well this Lent, it was hard!

So many sales were happening!

I decorated my iPod!

How does it look?

In the center are bunny stickers!

I bought this ASH & DIAMOND "JELLY GILTER" wallet today!!

It was my most expensive item...

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I love it!!

21,000 yen!! About $200 american.

I also bought some new makeup,

the highlight being my Yves Saint Lauren lip gloss!

The lip gloss was 3000 yen each, I bought 2.

$60 american total!

I didn't buy to much clothes, but I bought some basics and H&M.

I need to buy more spring clothes, so I will shop again soon!!!

O-Hanami

Going to Ueno Park yesterday was very enjoyable!

We had lots of people come!

I had lunch with everyone, but I forgot my Camera!!

So sad!

Later in the evening, I walked around the booths at a local temple with a couple friends.

Yummy, ne?

Cosplay Photo's - REBORN!

This morning I met with a guy who contacted me through friends, to take photo's of him!

I was embarassed,

I met him in a coffee shop, and I never noticed he was who I was meeting!

I accidentally said out loud, "What a cute boy...!"

He looked at me, "me?"

I was so embarrased, when I found out he was who I was meeting!

We had coffee and then went for him to change,

and to take photo's.

We drove in his car, to a wearhouse.

I think the photo's turned out very well!

He loved them!

The character is MUKURO ROKUDO from the anime REBORN!

Enjoy!

Spring Time!!

Havn't written in a while ~

I have been busy!

I have many events and parties to plan for work,

and I am also planning for my trip to INDIA this summer!

It's Hanami time here in Japan!

The Blossoms are in full bloom!!

I am going to a O-Hanami picnic with friends this thursday,

very exciting!

I love taking pictures of the Blossoms!

Cleaning Satoshi's Apartment

I met with Satoshi's mom at his apartment today, to help go through his stuff. She said I could have anything I wanted from there, as he didn't have a will so everything he has went right to his parents.

We havn't gone through everything, but we decided all his clothes will go to charity, and we gave some books to charity as well. I took some of his cook books and novels.

I've already got his dog Oliver at my house, Chocolate and him have become great friends ^^

I am reading this one book of Satoshi's right now, "A Short History of Progress". It's very interesting...

It supports evolution, which I do not personally believe, but that isn't the main focus. It's about how civilization has evolved, and how "progress" as we know it isn't all good, and how we are progressing to far, to fast and it will doom us all.

Depressing, but interesting.

We finished about 1030am, as his mom had to go to work for 11, so I stayed downtown for a bit.

I found these REALLY cute Hello Kitty soft drinks, and had to buy some!

I also bought the Mamma Mia DVD, which I have been meaning to buy for a while now.
I looked at some clothes, but I resisted!

Australia

Just got back from Sydney early this morning (4am!).

My parents went back to bed but I could not sleep.

The trip was not without crying, but it wasn't to bad.

I am feeling sleeping now, and will probably nap a bit later.

Above is a picture of my brother surfing!

Another man I do not know is standing in the picture though!

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A few nights before we left, we had a BBQ at my sisters - Australian Style!

My sisters husband was out with his parents that night, taking Shaun to visit them for a bit, so we spent a night together in the backyard like we used to do when we were little!

It was the first time in years to do this!

So enjoyable to be just with my siblings and parents.
More calming...

I don't want to say, but I am so Jealous of my sister.
Her love is with her now.
I don't want to be jealous.
but I cannot help it.

During this trip, I acctually grew angry with her.

I wanted to leave, never see her again.

I even thought to strike her with my frustration.

I pray the lord will forgive me for these ugly thoughts.

Hinamatsuri

Yesterday was Hinamatsuri!

Me and my mother set up the family Doll Set in the living room,

and my dad made some nice snacks!

I havn't set it up with my mom, since I was 19,

so it has been a while!

After dinner we phoned my sister in Australia

She is doing well, Shaun (my nephew) is turning 4 in a few weeks!

Speaking of which, we are going to Australia!

To visit my sister, and her family there.

It is warm there, I am excited.

Today was boring.

I went out shopping with my mom, she needed some new spring/summer dresses.

I didn't buy anything for myself though!

I will be successful this lent.

Working

Today has been my first day acctually in the office for a long time.

It has been painful to be around so many happy Brides and their families.

I have mostly just been working from home - helping other planners with small things like hall bookings, ect.

But, that could not continue forever now could it?

The female train was empty today when I went to work, it was peaceful

My co-workers gave me flowers!

Kinda silly, but a very nice thought of them.

I had a private meeting with my boss today, she is so kind.

She is assigning me as little weddings as possible,

so I am doing a lot of parties.

Some are very big parties for special clients ^^

being a planner means I will be at the parties too!

Lent is going very good, and I have kept up all my goals!

Are you celebrating lent?

What have you given up?

Ash Wednesday

This morning I went to Ash Wednesday Mass, and now I am at a friends house.

Above is my friend Michelle, a friend from church. She is studying here at University.

I am happy I brought my camera today, as my and Michelle are having fun snapping photo's.

I brought it because Father Shinjo asked me to take photo's for the church website.

For lent, I will work on saying the Rosary everyday.

I usually only do it 2-3 times a week, including Sundays... when I remember.

I haven't done it at all since Satoshi died.

So this is my Lent goal.

Also, I am going to try to cut down on excess clothes shopping and unneeded trips to the salon, ect.

And, not drink as much as I usually do.

Not that I Drink lots, usually only 1-2 nights a week.

But I want to give up almost all alcohol.

I know I will probably drink a little wine here and there,

so I am giving up my weekly social drinking.

Arn't these beads beautiful?

They are mine, since I was a baby.

They have been my first and only Rosary beads.

They were a gift when I was baptised, though I never used them until I was much older.

I will work hard this lent, both emotionally and physically through my goals.

Visiting my Love

Today I traveled with Satoshi's Mother and Father, and his best friend from High School, to his grave site in his home village of Kiyakawa in Kanagawa prefecture, about 2 hours by car out of Tokyo.

This was the first time anyone visited since his first memorial in January.

We will also all go again during Obon in July.

I cried so much, the most since his death.

My eyes are still stinging, though at least the redness has gone down.

After we got back, I said goodbye to Satoshi's parents
and met a few friends for an early dinner and desert.


My friends say I am looking so despressed.
I am trying so hard to continue on normally,
but I cannot.
Oh lord, I miss him so much.
My heart cannot believe he is gone.

Lent

Lent is starting soon,

starting this Wednesday!

Oh how time goes by!

I still have no decided what I am to give up this year.

Last year I gave up excess clothes shopping as well as drinking any alcohol other than communion wine.

This year, maybe go completely vegan? I already can't eat meat on the fasting days,

and that will be a challenge for me like Lent should be.

Writing in a blog again is so strange.

It seems like a whole year has passed,

not only a month.

I am going to Satoshi's grave tomorrw,

first time since the funeral.

I'm going to take his favorite flowers,

I am sure he would enjoy that.

Dissapearance

On the evening of January 16th, 2009, my fiance Satoshi was driving hom from work and got into a terrible car accident.

On the morning of January 17th, he was pronounced deceased.

I have been in a terrible state, and have since de-activated my facebook account as well as turning away from my blog and all my friends.

I moved in with my parents, selling my apartment.

I have even since gone on a leave of work.

I am starting to get better, and ask for the help of my dear friends here to help me through this painful time.

Please pray for me.

Wedding Dresses? So soon?!

So basically, my sister leaves back to Australia on Friday morning,

and she wanted to see me try on my first wedding dress...

So we did, today shortly after I got off work.

I've been browsing a few dresses while working over the past month

and found a couple I just love, like this one

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Everyone loved this one most

It was my favorite also

but I have a long time till the wedding to find an even more beautiful one

♥

I'm going to add other photo's from today on facebook

VOCALOID ~LIN&RIN~

Here they are!

I think this was my favorite shoot that I have ever done for my friends!

They picked such a beautiful set!

Yes, this are in the same set as the

HATSUNE MIKU & KAITO Masquerade Ver.

photo's that are in my facebook album

I hope you enjoyed!

Please see my facebook album of cosplay photo's I have taken!

New Layout

I didn't get around to posting the photo's from yesterdays cosplay, as I got caught up changing the layout of my blog!

I wanted to try something new

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I have also changed my picture!

and a link to my JAPANESE Profile page,

as well as to my poupee and work web-site

all added to top menu bar!

Please take a look!

Tell me what you think of the new style!

I will try to post cosplay photo tomorrow

It is late now

Sunday

I hope everyone has been well!

You like my dress? A new dress that I am wearing to church this morning

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I have not blogged in a week or so!

Very sorry - I have been busy with work and other things.

Yesterday I took cosplay photo's for a friend

I will post them later this afternoon

Me and Satoshi may go to India this summer!

I loved it when I went a few years ago

Looking at momentos from that time,

I miss it very much!

People are so kind there

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I want to share gods word!

With satoshi - it will be an amazing trip!

I really hope we go!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! ♥

A Day late, but I've been really busy, hardly even at home!

Family is really important this time of year, and my sister is home from the USA so we have been visiting lots with eachother!

It is really nice to see her again!

I hope you all had a very blessed Holiday Season and I hope this year is a good one!

♥