Disneyland & Golden Week

Yesterday, after church, me and some friends went to Tokyo Disneyland for the day!

It was so much fun, I am forgeting many troubles ♥

My parents left on friday for Italy and London for their own vacation.

I didn't want to go, as I did just go recently with Satoshi...

So, I spent the weekend with friends!

And tonight is my friend's goodbye party before she leaves back to the USA.

She is in another town for the day, so I can spend all day to get things ready at the club hall we rented out!!

It will be a fun party!

Cleaning Satoshi's Apartment

I met with Satoshi's mom at his apartment today, to help go through his stuff. She said I could have anything I wanted from there, as he didn't have a will so everything he has went right to his parents.

We havn't gone through everything, but we decided all his clothes will go to charity, and we gave some books to charity as well. I took some of his cook books and novels.

I've already got his dog Oliver at my house, Chocolate and him have become great friends ^^

I am reading this one book of Satoshi's right now, "A Short History of Progress". It's very interesting...

It supports evolution, which I do not personally believe, but that isn't the main focus. It's about how civilization has evolved, and how "progress" as we know it isn't all good, and how we are progressing to far, to fast and it will doom us all.

Depressing, but interesting.

We finished about 1030am, as his mom had to go to work for 11, so I stayed downtown for a bit.

I found these REALLY cute Hello Kitty soft drinks, and had to buy some!

I also bought the Mamma Mia DVD, which I have been meaning to buy for a while now.
I looked at some clothes, but I resisted!

Australia

Just got back from Sydney early this morning (4am!).

My parents went back to bed but I could not sleep.

The trip was not without crying, but it wasn't to bad.

I am feeling sleeping now, and will probably nap a bit later.

Above is a picture of my brother surfing!

Another man I do not know is standing in the picture though!

\ *o* /

A few nights before we left, we had a BBQ at my sisters - Australian Style!

My sisters husband was out with his parents that night, taking Shaun to visit them for a bit, so we spent a night together in the backyard like we used to do when we were little!

It was the first time in years to do this!

So enjoyable to be just with my siblings and parents.
More calming...

I don't want to say, but I am so Jealous of my sister.
Her love is with her now.
I don't want to be jealous.
but I cannot help it.

During this trip, I acctually grew angry with her.

I wanted to leave, never see her again.

I even thought to strike her with my frustration.

I pray the lord will forgive me for these ugly thoughts.

Hinamatsuri

Yesterday was Hinamatsuri!

Me and my mother set up the family Doll Set in the living room,

and my dad made some nice snacks!

I havn't set it up with my mom, since I was 19,

so it has been a while!

After dinner we phoned my sister in Australia

She is doing well, Shaun (my nephew) is turning 4 in a few weeks!

Speaking of which, we are going to Australia!

To visit my sister, and her family there.

It is warm there, I am excited.

Today was boring.

I went out shopping with my mom, she needed some new spring/summer dresses.

I didn't buy anything for myself though!

I will be successful this lent.

Visiting my Love

Today I traveled with Satoshi's Mother and Father, and his best friend from High School, to his grave site in his home village of Kiyakawa in Kanagawa prefecture, about 2 hours by car out of Tokyo.

This was the first time anyone visited since his first memorial in January.

We will also all go again during Obon in July.

I cried so much, the most since his death.

My eyes are still stinging, though at least the redness has gone down.

After we got back, I said goodbye to Satoshi's parents
and met a few friends for an early dinner and desert.


My friends say I am looking so despressed.
I am trying so hard to continue on normally,
but I cannot.
Oh lord, I miss him so much.
My heart cannot believe he is gone.

Wedding Dresses? So soon?!

So basically, my sister leaves back to Australia on Friday morning,

and she wanted to see me try on my first wedding dress...

So we did, today shortly after I got off work.

I've been browsing a few dresses while working over the past month

and found a couple I just love, like this one

♥

Everyone loved this one most

It was my favorite also

but I have a long time till the wedding to find an even more beautiful one

♥

I'm going to add other photo's from today on facebook

Holdays & Wedding Dates

I hope everyone's holidays were well ♥

Christmas I spent with Satoshi and his parents, and today we went to visit my family.

My Mom, Dad, Sister, Brother-in-Law, and Nephew ~ we went out for dinner all together.

My Nephew is so cute!

I love children

Me and Satoshi talked lots since returning to Japan

and we have decided on a date for our wedding.

June 21st, 2010